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Three Good:

1) I got my hair cut last Thursday and it's shooort but nice. My hair was down past my shoulder blades and now it's just under my ears. I don't think I've had my hair this short in close to ten years. It's an odd feeling.

2) I sent a letter to my biological father yesterday. I realised that while I'm ready to let go, I need him to know how I feel so that I don't keep hoping that maybe one day things will be different. Writing the letter? That was bloody hard, but actually sending it? Such a wonderful feeling of release.

3) Going to sleep with Lily curled up next to me. Best feeling ever. Yep.

Three Bad:

1) My hair! Okay, so it's not exactly bad but I'm still not sure if I like it or not. I put a lightner through it on Saturday because I thought it looked too dark and frumpy and now I'm not sure if the lightner hasn't made it look too ... teeny. Every morning I think I like it and yet every night I think I hate it. :-S

2) The potential fallout from the letter I sent to my biological father. Honestly, I think I'm over-reacting with this one but I keep freaking out that things could get really ugly after this. I did this for me, and I feel great for doing it, but I know how my biological father can be and it scares me to think of how he might react to this.

3) My house looks like a bomb has hit it. Seriously. I keep telling myself that I just need to get down and clean but every time I do I just see pile after pile of dirty clothes and dishes and a thousand other things to do and always manage to do something else instead.

Three Cool, or Three Things I Need To Spend A Lot Of Money On Before Christmas But Which Are Still Cool:

1) A car. I have put this off for years but it has got to a point where I can't put driving off any longer. The thing that really sealed the deal with this was realising that despite the high petrol prices it's STILL cheaper for me to drive to my parents for Chrismtas than it is to fly -- keeping in mind that my parents live nearly 1000km (621 miles) from me.

2) A new computer. Specifically, a Mac PowerBook. My poor old desktop is dying and the more strain I put on it the more I realise that this needs to get rectified as soon as possible. The simple solution to this is to buy a PowerBook through salary sacrificing, but it's still a lot of money.

3) A clothes dryer. Okay, so I don't really need this before Christmas but it would make life so, so much easier. The saddest thing is that this is by far the cheapest of these three things and probably the least likely thing I get. Woe.


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January 2009



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