How the tides do turn...

I'm not going to be negative or let things get the better of me anymore. This is my life, and it may not be easy and it may not go the way I want it to but that doesn't mean that I have to let it get to me.

There are always things to be positive about, they don't need to be big and momentous, the small things can make all the difference - even if it is just the memory of the smile the guy in street gave you, or the comfy bed that is waiting to welcome you home.

A wise person recently told me to take the time to enjoy life, because you only get one chance at it. We all lead busy lives, full of worries and hassles. As soon as you wake up in the morning it is go go go. You rush to get ready, you rush to get to work, you rush to get things done and meet commitments, but how often do you take the time to take in everything that is around you? I know this sounds cliché, but it's true. At the end of the day you're the one that matters, everything else is still going to be there whether you like it or not, so you may as well make the most of the time you have.

I'm not going to pretend that everything is the I would like it to be, but the thing is, there is nothing I can do to change what happens. Sometimes some things are just out of your control. It's not worth letting them consume your life.

Three months ago if you had asked me if I was happy with how my life was I would've said yes - not because things were easy, or because I found the time to do things that I wanted to do, but because I made myself believe that life was worth too much to be unhappy about. Ask me now, and the answer will still be yes. It doesn't matter how much life changes, there are still things to be happy about. I miss things that I was able to do three months ago but at the same time I am thankful that I have the time to do other things in their place. I like the freedom I have from the commitments I had, but at the same time I miss having those commitments.

I've been doing a lot of reflecting and a lot of thinking lately. Things are changing, and whether those changes are going to be good or bad there is nothing I can do to stop them. Two and a half years ago I made the decision to come to Sydney and try my hand at what the city had to offer. Two and half years later and I have made the decision to put it all to rest. I don't want to be in this city any longer than I have to be, and it seems that city doesn't want me anymore either. I find it strangely surreal that the job that made it possible for me to stay in this city is now coming to an end. The relationships I've formed, the people I have grown to love and care about, all of this is being stripped away by corporatization. And you know what, I am sad that this is happening. I'm sad that I will never see some of these people again, but at the same stage I am glad that I had the opportunity to be a part of this in the first place.

I think the thing that everyone needs to remember that nothing happens without reason, and you cannot always control reason. Everyday I am thankful that I have the opportunity to know the people that I do. Each and everyone of you is special to me in your own way. I feel that I am a better person because I have had the opportunity to know the people I do.

Things get hard, but as long as you remember who you are and what you have to offer, things will always improve. Believe in yourself. Life is too short to waste.

That is all.